To be honest and frank, I'm glad the sin of gluttony is allowed in the church. I've struggled with it most of my life.
About two years ago I tipped the scales at my highest weight ever, 240 pounds (pic on the left). At that time I started to commit my eating habits to the Lord with the accountability of some people I trusted. Over the past 24 months my weight has gone up and down, but my basic eating and exercise habits have improved and the overall trend in my body weight has been downward.
This morning during a physical I weighed in at 195 (pic on the right from last Thurs.), a milestone I haven't experienced in over 13 years- the last time I was under 200 pounds. I feel healthy and exercise discipline is going well right now, but I still struggle with making food an idol.
Here's an interesting observation about all this- Today on Facebook I listed my status as having achieved the goal of getting under 200 pounds for the first time in 13 years. In response several friends said "Great job!" and "Keep it up". It's the "keep it up" part that intrigues me. How does one interpret such an encouragement? It brings a chuckle because I know people are totally well-meaning, but are they saying "Great...but don't stop, you really need to lose more"? Maybe they mean "Well now, that's good, but dude, you're still pretty pudgy"?
I just find body image issues so interesting. I don't think I have ever been terribly insecure about being "husky" (I even had "Toughskin" jeans that said so when a kid), it's been my lack of control about how much I eat that has convicted me constantly. So discovering that I apparently still look like I need to lose weight is downright interesting to me. Am I making too much of this? My heart rate, blood work, and blood pressure were right where they need to be, but I apparently don't look like it? I can run circles around several skinny people I know, but apparently I still don't look just right?
The truth is, the charts tell me I should be 175 for my height. I haven't been that weight since my second year of college. I think staying under 200 is a difficult but possible goal. My past tells me this will be a constant struggle. So, I don't write this post with any sense of finishing a goal but rather noting an interesting phenomenon about the way we view ourselves and possibly the way others see us. I also post this as an encouragement for those who like me, struggle greatly with self-control in the area of food. Any periods of victory over the temptation to over-eat are opportunities to praise God and ask for continued grace.